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chat should I go to collage to be a marine biologist or mortician
#i rly wanna go to art school#but I don’t know what I would do with that degree#like I don’t really wanna be an animator#they have kinda shitty pay and work hours#so I think one of these would be more realistic#I still have a few years left before I go to college though#if I even get accepted in#I’m thinking about taking a gap year once I graduate though#like to try and get my shit together#embalmer could be cool too#but yeah#I like sharks so that would be cool to study#and mortician#from the research I’ve done you only need about 2 years of college#and it pays pretty decently#but it’s very emotionally taxing#if that doesn’t work out I’ll try to get a job at a music shop or something idk 😭#I love stressing over work even though I’ve never had a job and am still a teenager
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Council of lovefools.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jiang cheng#They don't have an actual sleepover in this scene but the vibes were so sleepover coded...I had to get them cozied up.#Late night talks with friends and family are some of the best conversations.#My siblings and I used to have room sleepovers with each other (Actually an excuse to stay up and talk about runescape)#Currently my flatmates and I also have really great heart to hearts late into the night.#Pondering shit like 'What defines confidence?“ and ”Why are people terrified of letting themselves fall in love?"#All that aside; There is a really great conversation between JC and WWX here. They are so close and yet so far way from each other!#Fundamentally they *agree* about many things - but JC now has to play the role of someone more 'mature'.#His temper is reigned in and he had to take a more nuanced approach. Whereas WWX can be far more reactionary.#JC has changed to become someone more mature (or at least he is trying).#Contrast this attitude with the scene *right* after where WWX literally goes baby mode with JYL. Rolling around going “I'm Fwee years old”.#When children are hurt we comfort them with hugs and warm food and a laugh. It's not enough when you're an adult. It's not simple anymore.#WWX is stuck in the past when everyone else is shifting and moving on! It's a depression allegory (and just...actual depression)#But we also get to see how some things have stayed the same. They still bicker about soup. They still tease. They are still together.#They all care for each other very much but they are struggling against trauma and are not equipped to talk about it.#You can't really blame WWX for being so protective over JYL. But JC is right: “You don't have a say in who she likes.”#It may have started as an arranged marriage but *she* is *choosing* what her heart wants. JC sees that. WWX cannot.#The final act of love is letting go after all.
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tristamp post-S1 mashwood sillies and tri98(?) merylwood :]
#trigun#trigun stampede#tristamp#trigun 1998#trigun 98#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#meryl stryfe#mashwood#merylwood#stryfewood#the comfort of mashwood spending days together without much happening. just eventless days together#also i know i know meryl and ww barely interact in '98 but#who cares when i can just put two of my fav characters together like playing with dolls#after the fifth moon incident ww trying to leave w/o a word to go look for vash#and meryl having none of his shit bc she already lost sight of one of them so shes not about to lose the other one#*SLAPS VW AND MW* THESE BITCHES CAN STORE SO MUCH UNSPOKEN THINGS#i also just really like ww getting flustered and manhandled by a three-apples-tall woman#merylwood is yuri to me. im not explaining#my art#raepliica_art
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ok vi dropping the gauntlets to kiss caitlyn again is WILD bc she wants that cookie so effing bad, yes, its cute this is a certified Cute Caitvi Moment, i love them. but also symbolically? vi doesn't want to do this at her core. she just wants caitlyn, and that's why she's here. for once, her heart's not in the fight
vi loves caitlyn enough to relax for once in her life. vi, who has had a consistent issue w believing that if she charges facefirst in with her fists it's going to fix everything, a problem that multiple people note about her, that is born out of so much trauma, makes the conscious choice to put her weapons down for the first time in years
and how does it end, the one single time she doesn't try to fix something by fighting it? with her sobbing alone on the floor
#these two are gonna be the death of me if they dont get their shit TOGETHER#arcane#vi#piltover's finest#arcane s2 spoilers#levi.txt#vi specifically is gonna break my fucking heart. if this woman doesnt get some COMFORT#it was genuinely hard to watch#watching the one person vi has left now leave her too and watching it absolutely shatter her. this character who has been SO stoic#she doesnt even try to fight back she just fucking crumples#like vis life has been HELL and weve still never seen her cry like that#vi cmere how do you like your hot chocolate. do you want to borrow my weighted blanket you can borrow it if you want
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I've been thinking lately... maybe I should stop worrying so much about why I feel something and just feel it.
#grease rise of the pink ladies#grease rotpl#rise of the pink ladies#rotpl#cynthia zdunowski#grease spoilers#cynthia rotpl#shy guy rotpl#short king ‘wait does this mean i’m a thespian?’ cynthia#shy guy 'i'm jewish though?' edward#baby boy shy guy!!!! my son my child!!#queer solidarity love to see it!#i think i need a gif tag#not to prev tags myself but uh:#cynthia and shy guy are like Peak high school gays trying to date each other bc they can't accept they're gay but know the other is Safe#like i really didn't expect for this to be where his v obvious crush was going but i'm here for it!#love them love this#love to see cyn getting their shit together to apologize#cannot wait for next week!
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Jacob Black’s Self Saving System and His Shenanigans™️
#jacob black#jacob black’s self saving system#jbsss#twilight#the twilight saga#twilight renaissance#edward cullen#Tell me your MC is a loser without telling me that your MC is a loser.#I rewatched twilight the other day and the acting was so painfully awkward like ❓❓#guys I’m trying to finish the second part but college is killing me😭😭#it’s 45% done but the writer’s block and my schedule is just —#Like the quizzes and CTs are legit going to be the death of me.#Also can please someone teach me C programming ?#I can’t understand shit and I have a test in like three days.#why did I have to take engineering#just a lil something before I get my act together and post the second part
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Fourth of July is so funny cuz it’s the one time every year that people decades past their hetalia phase will wake up in a cold sweat and go “there’s only one character I can draw for this day… 👁️👁️💦”
#the haunting sounds of the American theme sneaking up on them the closer it gets to the fourth#like the jaws theme but it’s an eagle screech#eagles don’t even screech the usa’s a sham#this is a very usa centric post#I dunno maybe people in other countries wake up in a cold sweat on their foundation days and go#no… it’s time 👁️👁️💦#shoutout to all my American Hetalia fans waking up today and remembering that they’re hetalia fans#we will get through this together#I hope I get to glimpse fireworks this year#dude last year was such a bummer#I wanted to do sparklers in the backyard but no one wanted to join me so it was just me doing em myself while my family kept trying to#convince me to come back inside :(((#then my dad went hey this year we should get fireworks#NO#no one can have fun cuz you guys were mean to me last year >:(#slash j btw it’s not a big deal I’m just salty lol#when you’re the only one full of whimsy in your family 😔#happy birthday America#get your shit together#❤️🤍💙#hetalia#aph america#hws america#alfred f jones
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do you ever get so art blocked you bust out 3 redraws 1 day????
#star wars#a new hope#leia organa#luke skywalker#obi wan kenobi#bro i WISH my colours could look like this all the time...... how can we bring back movies made on film stock#shit just hits different#I started out trying to mash photo study and stylisation together but it kinda fell apart lol#good to get out the art constipation tho
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i think i'm just gonna rawdog veilguard when it comes out and have it as my first dragon age game oops
scale 0-10 how bad idea?
#life#like.. i got the previous games on sale but i just can't make myself play them and i don't think i have enough time to before veilguard#genuinely the 5 times i tried my hand slipped and i ended up booting up bg3#and honestly??? i don't want to move on from bg3 just yet#actually.. i don't want to at all i love this shit#and i usually get lost in the sauce once i start experiencing a story so... yeah#but i really want to try dragon age and i feel like everyone playing it together#is gonna pull me in and make me feel like part of something the way bg3 did so yeah#planning on that#i know like 5 characters and literally have no clue what the story is about#blight something?? dsgdfg
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is this your card? ♦️♣️♥️♠️ it isnt but you dont wanna hurt his feelings
#this was supposed to be a warmup but i got carried away.... i havent drawn in so long that its been hard to focus orz#im testing a new brush for fun. again.. i think i can use this for clean lineart..?? im surprised i went as long as i did with the#narinder brush honestly... but i wanna try something new so here we are again#if i could get my shit together id love to draw a model of his van because i have smth really cool in mind..i was looking at pictures#of old wooden caravans like the horse drawn ones and i wonder if i could combine that with the shape of an RV#i like the ones with a door at the rear bc it kinda lookslike a train caboose.. maybe he'd get someone to weld him a custom ride!!#idk how intricate and detailed i can design it without making it a pain in the ass to draw every time BUT i have a general idea#it would probably have a door on the side but idk if itd flip down to make a stage or upwards to make a roof?? and then theres a#curtain behind it where he would come out and do his show methinks.. ive been looking at pictures of camping vans on pinterest for ideas#i dont think he LIVES in the van since i mentioned his home is an old run down theatre when he isnt on the road. i wanna draw that too#but the RV should have enough for long travels like a bed and cabinets..? maybe a net hanging on the ceiling where all his props go#id like to think of ideas for a hometown.. toronto has a huge entertainment district so it would make sense for him to live there#although id also love to base parts of it from vancouver since id love to go back and visit </3#..would there be furth names for those places?? nyancouver... clawronto... whinnypeg (like a horse whinny)...#pawson creek.... purrlington... otterwa.. i love coming up with names lol#my art#myart#my oc#oc#sleight#laikas comet oc#fan character#fur#furry art
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it's kinda fascinating to me how welt has been "at the end of his life" for like. several decades by now. he goes on and on about how old and weary he is and how "his job is done" and his story is over but- oh wait i just realized i can phrase this in a very funny way- he's kind of sorta immortal now because he got the herrscher core back, so he's really just stuck in the epilogue for all eternity
#kdj will never leave my brain. clearly#hsr#or uh#hi3#???#idk?#ill just tag the guy himself#welt yang#like his story could have ended several times#with his self sacrifice during the second eruption or his self sacrifice in the sea of quanta or his self sacrifice in apho#man welt get your shit together#or with him teaching bronya to be his successor and her surpassing him#but none of these character arcs were about him. they were moreso about the effect he had on other characters. while he stays the same#and it makes sense because when does the guy ever think abt himself lol#but all of these endings would have been tragic in a way#so maybe this epilogue he's stuck in. the. the space train he's stuck in.#HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA#i ought to tag orv at this point#maybe that epilogue (hsr) is what he needs. because we can tell that things are different for him#and that he's gradually talking about going home less and less#but all the tragedy of his self sacrifices happened bc even while crushed by grief none of his friends/family saw another way out#and he had to take responsibility again. but if this happens in hsr - with him going back to self sacrifice without question#do you think the astral express crew will let him? or are they gonna try to find another way? without letting him do it all on his own?#um. this is very long#hsr meta#i guess
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maybe if i just put these screenshots together youll understand why i think their relationship just Works so well as it pertains to the characters and themes of S4 in general
neither of them know what theyre doing, but theyre figuring it out Together. the old ways are dead. and together theyll build a new future thats worth fighting for
#twdg#violentine#clems “i dont know” paired with violets “lets figure it out together”. screaming crying throwing up#clem never knew what she was doing!! she was just trying her best!! and now shes tired as SHIT!!! she wants a break 😭!!!#vi helps take that weight off by supporting her as much as she does (which is A LOT!! and clem supports her in return. they grow together)#that bit in the woods where instead of getting grossed out by the guts vi crouches down to ajs level and keeps the situation calm#and she looks up to clem and gives her a little smile. and clem just relaxes and smiles back !! DO YOU UNDERSTAND !!!#clem being anxious about her reaction. violet putting her at ease. clem getting to Relax for 2 seconds. they help each other CHILL 😭#ALSO why their walk home talking about ericson and renaming it and imagining what they could add to it is just so good narratively#they turned that prison into their HOME!! a place worth fighting for!!!#tenn wanting to help rebuild. vi saying Everyone will :') its a home for ALL OF THEM 😭 its about the COMMUNITY !!!#this is also why i think the friends route still works but theres just even more Juice with the romance. even ignoring minnie#violets “you better not disappear on me”. friended clems “ok” to romanced clems “i promise”#in a season about building a home and a family that second one just hits harder you know? and like above with the learning to dance#i just feel like their romantic relationship specifically fits into the overall themes of the game the strongest and elevates it#me talking at the wall (tumblr drafts)#all of my friends who have played twdg are too normie so i gotta make posts like this instead. or i'll die#wont somebody analyze narrative with me#it speaks
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What's so fun about BruJay as a ship is Jason's sheer obsessive devotion to Bruce. Jason is possessive over Bruce, to the point he doesn't care about the deaths of others so long as he has Bruce's attention. A part of the UTRH arc this isn't talked about enough is that Bludhaven fucking explodes mid-way and Jason won't let Bruce see if Dick is alive.
batman (1940) #650
A lot of discussion about UTRH paints Jason as this anger-driven cold, calculating machine up against Bruce when it's so clear that his love for Bruce is what drives him at his root, even if he won't acknowledge it. He says it himself, he would've done anything if it was Bruce who'd died instead of him and his anger is rooted in that possessive devotion not being reciprocated.
batman (194) #650
BruJay as a ship always to be, to some level, unrequited. Even if Bruce loves Jason back in that way, he'll never be that obsessed with Jason. Jason will always view Bruce's love for Dick or Tim to be a distraction, proof that Bruce isn't dedicated enough to him. Jason has the need to always have Bruce's attention, even when it could come at the cost of Bruce's other loved ones. Something something cannibalism as a metaphor for love in how Jason wants to consume Bruce's whole existence. He can't let Bruce leave him again, can't let Bruce love or grieve anyone else. Forcing Bruce to choose between Jason and the Joker isn't just about confronting Jason's killer, it's about confronting the other person who exists as this duality with Bruce and consumes so much of Bruce's life. That's the role Jason wants to fill, calling himself Red Hood and forcing Bruce to look at what he's become. But still loving Bruce and wanting more than anything for Bruce to reciprocate that love in the way that Jason understands. I just think it's good soup and rife with Dynamics that are underexplored with them.
#necrotic festerings#brujay#jaybruce#jaybru#jason todd x bruce wayne#batcest#i've had this thought in my head for a while#i was just weirdly shy about posting it? like convinced myself it's not as verbose as some of my other thoughts#also GOD why is the art of this arc SO BAD.#i can't take it SERIOUSLY#i hate looking at it.#the faces. why are the faces like that.#brujay needs more love bc jesus#gotham war had some good brujay content but i am still too bitter to discuss that shitshow. so. ignoring it for now.#bruce changing jason's brain chemistry as an act of love is the most FUCKED UP brujay thing ever tho#it's so Them.#sorry that is just peak brujay. they are incapable of meeting in any middle and always trying to change each other.#maybe this meta should've been about that.#but then i'd have to use new-52 and rebirth panels so eh. nvmd.#this page makes it seem like i hate post-flashpoint comics. i don't i swear#they just interest me less for batcest.#like oh yay everyone's getting along and working together.#it only came at the expense of throwing away decades of character work. small sacrifice.#i need to stop posting meta at fucking 5 am.#no one is going to see this bc i can't be a normal person.#wrote this while watching invincible#which is pretty good so far but man the ending of ep1 clocked me. i was absolutely bamboozled.#i had something else i was going to say in the tags but i lost it.#anyway most of this is a ship post and projecting shit as per usual and yk. not serious comic media.#i'm just silly and gay.
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killer being like "yeah i know every single little thing about horror and dust" (because he watches them as a part time hobby (freak) (find something better to do)) and then he acts surprised when they do something that he wouldnt expect them to do in his little predetermined absolutely perfect concept of them
like what do you MEAN horror licks spoons clean when he's using them so he doesn't have to get a completely different one for the main course and the dessert. what do you MEAN dust has a lisp even though he speaks fluently and uses even more complex words than killer himself. horror knows how to sew and he often patches up their things without either of them noticing?? dust always wears oversized and clothes that cover him up just because he finds it comfy?? what??? out ra geous???? these guys have small little quirks to them that killer doesn't already know about???? killer immediately wants to know more. so he can expand his internal profile of them of course. not for any other more endearing and sweet reason. not at all,,,,,,,, (:3)
#AASHSHAHHHHH this one is so cute....... this thought. thank you brain for making this thought#it's like killer's experiencing sonder (except he's not aware of his own complexity of life because of his own derealization/personalizatio#actually i dont think this deserves to be a side blog post. this is too damn CUTE#at first the 2 were probably weirded out by killer watching them and now they probably dgaf...... killer comments less than youd expect#but now theyre used to his shit so they do all these tiny things that killer gets to pick up on and learn more about them#its so interesting...... killer can do as much reasoning as he can to try and find a logical reason for why they do these little things#but in the end if the real reason is just because they wanted to or they felt like it then how can killer comprehend that?#how can they just do that so easily and choose to do things based off a whim instead of having a calculated precise reason for personal gai#he wouldnt realize it on his own but noticing those little things coming fron horror and dust who used to be like him could help with the#everything is just a game and i am simply an avatar and the ultimate goal is the win aka be the most powerful#for dust and horror theyve already turned their consoles off. theyre out of their games theyve finished. their goal was just to beat it#(like if horrortale finally got the good ending it deserves because of aliza horror would have finished#if dust beat the player and due to extreme boredom (ITS GOTTA BE EXTREME EXTREME) decides to leave to explore the multiverse)#in killer's eyes theyve achieved their goals. but killer's still playing his game. maybe he IS the game. but eitherway he's not done#like they r. so taking into consideration how other versions of himself act when theyre finished with the game could he act like that 2??#did HE also finish his game and he never realized it? should he be basing these ideas off dust and horror when theyre kinda not the same gu#killer would find so many hoops to jump through to justify getting rid of the everything is a competitive game idea but there would be smth#IDK im just rambling. i gawt this idea from me imagining them fight. ya you wouldnt believe this sweet thing came from trio abuse :3#killer psychoanalyzing dust and horror is one of my favorite things eva. horror would HATE IT (if he were aware#and dust would totally be freaked out and keep to himself incase killer's planning anything against him#but uaaaghhh pretend this isnt canon this is triglycercule's ideal little world where they explore the mv and have fun#killer watching dust and horror sleep because he doesnt feel tired while theyre all in bed#and he's just picking up on how theyre positioned. how they breathe. the little things.......... djdjshahahaaahsushdjwbdsn ssosooooo cuuut#tricule hc#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#dare i say mtt poly. ok i dare say it. but like lowkey he'd do this whether theyre together or not...... killers just weird like that......
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hi hello hi I need to scream for a sec but I HAVE A SHORT STORY IN A PRINT ANTHOLOGY! like a real actual physical book!!! the anthology as a whole is about resource scarcity and specifically the moment a resource runs out, and true to form I wrote a funky thing about time and grief and messy familial relationships and gardening. cuz what is there to do when something ends other than to keep maintaining your plants.
this isn't even to say you should totally buy this thing but if you do want to check it out, it's available for preorder
#megs is writing#if there's one thing you gotta know about me it's that I will make a rosebush into a motif at any given opportunity#almost like I grew up with like 20 of them (not an exaggeration)#also for the record aan has REALLY FUN anthologies so if you are looking for funky spec fic from a small press I highly recommend#I'm trying to submit again to their current call cuz I LOVE their anthology themes but we'll see if I get my shit together in time.#I love having a STRUCTURE to write to. would love to just. write commissioned fiction for a living. it'd be great. genuinely I'd love it.#but alas our technocracy that wants to outlaw genuine human expression believes that should be illegal.#we stay silly regardless. mostly by working with small indie presses.
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A silly guide on how I draw normal Riolu vs My sona
#Riolu#Doodle#The Mod#Do not use my sona thanks#Just wanted to give a silly doodle while I ramble#I admittedly made the last few daily pieces as basically a progression of my eyes for the last ~1.5 years#Keeping up with everything became harder because of my eyes#I only talked about this briefly on my main twitter#I was diagnosed with keratoconus#My eyes got worse over time#so I was squinting constantly and would get headaches trying to focus my eyes to draw or play half the games I did#it sucked. I slept a lot to get rid of pain and I felt like I couldnt do my normal work so it kept piling#I had surgery + got RGP Contacts to help me see normally this year tho!#So I can finally get my shit together and have been slowly trying to get everything going/sorted#Just to like... explain where I disappeared to#Ofc Its hard to do anything art or reading without my contacts in#tbh i didnt even know until December lol so it went for awhile and thought my prescription went from good to shit#so i took a minor break from social media to keep where my eyes used online to mainly discord
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